V's sanctuary

Again, it feels so empty.. I need to get away.. Had breakfast with my dear Alin. She's having trouble again with her spouse. Let her talked.. let her cried.. now she can smiles again. I'll ALWAYS be there for you darlz.. #thruthickandthin. Share with her bout my situation..little that i knw..AARRGGHHHHHHHHH!!!

I think I need to start writing again. It seems so long I've been on hiatus. Not good! Not good for my soul. I barely sleep last nite thinking of what He told me. I know I'm wrong! I wasn't doing anything.I don't even seem to be eating. I know I'm always hungry but too much things in my head and can't seems to enjoy what I was eating. Just need to stuff something to ease the hunger in my tummy. I was drained these couple of days..infact weeks! Need some distractions so badly. He texted to offer dinner, well..a quick dinner wouldnt hurt rite?? Well! I'm WRONG!! Caught!! I'm facing the penalty! He wants us to be separated! I can't be selfish! I can't blame him! It was totally 100% my fault. We have lot of plans ahead. Kids birthdays..KK Trip..Boracay Getaway.. Kids are looking forward and I've been head over heels for vacations! He agrees to celebrate the birthdays but after that he wants to release me!! NOOOOOOOOOOO! He can't do that to me. He's my comfort and safety zone. The ONLY person in the world that I could trust my life with! I know I'm stupid! Please LUV... I'm begging u...

"Loneliness is the best friend, cause whether you're with someone or not, it will always be there waiting for you, it is the one thing that can never be taken away from you, and the lesson is to face it, befriend it, and become a stronger person as a result, and then be supremely happy being alone, and then love will walk into your life when you're not searching for it"

"Little world of you sometimes more meaningful than the big world of your outer circle..."

It was such a burden that I had to carry for years. Heaps of unanswered questions that need to be resolved. Then, my prayer was answered. I feel relieved. Hurt was healed. What left was just memories.. the past..and a new beginning.

I only thought it will only happen in my dream, but it happened. I have to pinched myself to be sure it happened. But why?? Must have a very good reason for it to happen. For sure, it answers heaps of questions. Questions that leave me wide awake at nights, questions that leave me speechless.

Got another good news. My prayer was answered. Alhamdulillah...

I have been thinking quite lately. Thinking mostly about myself, those mistakes I made, feeling the devil in me. What happened to me actually?? A question that I need to find the answer immediately.

I started early today. Has been in the office since 9am and lost track of time. Didn't even bother to have lunch. Went home to eat dinner and that's when I feel so exhausted. I haven't done my prayer yet. Need to do that first before crashing the bed.

Got nudged by someone on the net. Curious a little.. Anyway have lots of things in mind but then again I believe in my first instinct. Beware of strangers.. And this time, I listen!